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I am a walrus... who said that, I wonder. But really, if you know who I am please let me know, for I've been lost
much longer than I realize. Oh such angst in an old woman, but then I am still a child, and ever will be. perhaps
that is all I am.
History: My mother used to softly sing into my hair at night. Her arms would whisper of angels in that never-ending
white nightie, and I would snuggle deeply into that soft flesh that told me I was real. Then I wake up. And I
still know that illusion might be the only truth I own. That a life unlived is nothing. I went to a hundred schools,
you know, the school of he touched me 'there', and the school of hiding beneath a table when daddy comes home. The university
of all I am is a vagina without a soul, and my brother dies each time he sees me because he couldn't save us at all.
And my other brother breathes death into the world but doesn't know why, and I am still alive to hate my mother for not having
an abortion when I was still in that womb, and I hate breath. I also went to other schools, how to play with boys, give
them something to want, lie and tell them I have a heart, pretend to love when I know I am only empty. then I grew up,
all those lessons well learned and I am only alone. Not sure at all if I am human, or 'real'... am there you have it.
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What a job!
will you hate me when I tell you I am unemployed and not looking...
and yet I must work I think, only I work on another world inside of some crazsy fat man in an institution, on death row.
Or I am an 'artist' oh yeah, what's that... a professional bum or a gypsy.
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Enneagram Test Results | Type 1 | Perfectionism | |||||||||||| |
46% | | Type 2 | Helpfulness | |||||||||||||| |
56% | | Type 3 | Image Awareness | |||||||||||||||| | 70%
| | Type 4 | Sensitivity | |||||||||||||| | 53% |
| Type 5 | Detachment | |||||||||||||| | 53% | | Type
6 | Anxiety | |||||||||||| | 46% | | Type 7 | Adventurousness |
|||||||||||||||| | 66% | | Type 8 | Aggressiveness |
|||||||||||||| | 60% | | Type 9 | Calmness | |||||||||||||||| |
70% | Your main type is 9 Your variant is sexual |
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Favorites
these are just some of my favorite things:
full lips with pink candy colors. people who breathe deeply as they
step outside, lying naked with my kitty-cat, swallowing the warm stuff I worked so hard to get, hallways with pictures
at the end, licking my lips in front of the wrong person, gorrilas and kangaroos, and parrots that understand sign language,
bad jokes, bunny rabbits that sing, sailing in my dreams, fluffy pillows, and always the sky.
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